#MH370... pulanglah dengan tenang....

when the news break last night...

many hearts were broken....

many hearts were shocked....

many hearts still hoping...

and many hearts still praying...

MH370... pulanglah...

pulanglah dengan tenang...

semoga perjumpaanmu dengan Ilahi...

dipermudahkan dan dirahmati...

semoga perjumpaanmu dengan Ilahi...

memberi petunjuk yang kekal abadi...

Ya Allah... 

semoga hari ini lebih baik dari semalam..

semoga hari ini kekal damai..

semoga hari ini datang dan pergi..

dengan tenang..

Ya Allah...

kami bersyukur dengan petunjukmu...

permudahkanlah segala rancangan kami...

datanglah kami bantuan dari segala sudut..

bantulah kami dari segenap ruang...

agar kami bisa menyelesaikan persoalan ini...

dengan mudah...

dengan segera...

dengan aman...

agar hati dan perasaan mereka kembali tenang...

menerima dugaan mu dengan mudah...

menerima takdir mu dengan redha...

#MH370... kepulangan mu dinanti...

pulanglah ayah.. pulangla ibu...

pulanglah anak... pulanglah saudara...

pulanglah dengan tenang...

"i prayed for them always.... and now my heart now goes to you families..."

written by : hana.basri

myTWIN story : Part 3 Twin Pre-Labour

alhamdulillah... ada masa continue lagi. sian kat mommy yg asked me at AskMommykembar slot. sorry mommy... very tight up to blog again *ok ni alasan*

having twin as my second pregnancy has at least make me feel bit prepared. yes only a bit! haha~ i did not really prepare til the last min you know! *teruk betul* everyday i pray non-stop from day 1 til labour to have my hubby together with me during labour. when its twin, i need to be more manja! demand for more attention la kononnye.... alhamdulillah, it was Allah will and my rezeki. alhamdulillah.... storyline nye lebih kurang ginilah

Monday 2 July 2012
masa ni i dah stat mc for labour. malam tu lebih kurang kul 12am i rasa mcm lenguh pinggang. ok mind here..... i jenis yg fear to pain. masa kecik2 dulu if i jatuh or anything i ok je tapi the moment i nampak darah.. terus rasa sakit tak terhingga! so since then i develop this fear to pain thingy~ so my definition of "contraction" is always lenguh pinggang. hahahha! *in denial sgt* mmg almost every night i lenguh pinggang so that very night it started at midnite. i rasa cam "takde apelah" since my hubby takde kan... so to be strong kononnye i control my emotion. trying hard to sleep at last i terlelap. but around 3am i terjaga with more intense "lenguh pinggang". since my hubby takde and outside was raining heavvvvvvily i told myself "takde apela... lagipon kan hujan. takkan nk kejut mama papa kan. nnt nak kuar dgn basah semua... ok tahan tahan" lebih kurang camtula.. berpeluh2 i tahan rasa lenguh tu. i ingat almost to 5am kot baru i boleh tido. and syukur alhamdulillah pagi esok nye i OK!!!

Wednesday 4 July 2012
today my hubby balik. alhamdulillah... sampai jugak dia akhirnya!!! so nothing happened actually today. just happy dia sampai rumah coz i can sense macam dah dekat. masa dia takde tu i keep on telling Allah with silent doa inside my heart saying that "Ya Allah... aku harap sangat abang balik hari rabu ni then at least kasi dia rehat one day camtu then baru la labour" boleh tak doa camtu? tp that was that i keep on telling myself and deep down i know mestila Allah dengar kan....

Friday 6 July 2012
it was my check up day. and we promised qistina nk pegi alamanda after that. so she was happily followed us. so bile check up as usual my gyne akan tya "how r u mommy? how the baby inside?" camtula... then she started to masukkan jari to measure opening. her water face changed!! "mommy... do you feel pain?" NO "do feel any contraction?" NO "do you feel anything before?" NO.. nape ye doc? "i think its 5-6cm already... let me confirm" so dia pon masukkan jari lagi dalam. "yes mommy its around 5-6cm already" dalam hati i.. "syukur alhamdulillah.. sempat my hubby sampai" so my big prediction was that "lenguh pinggang" on monday tu was actually a correct contraction! so she asked me to walk slowly outside and ready to straight to labour room. i was like.. "tak sempat pegi alamanda ye doc?" dia gelakkkkk kan i jewww

so straight i was to the labour room. qistina keep asking "why we are going here? kata nk pegi alamanda...." my hubby called my mom to fetch her. i was in the labour room asking for epidural to standby *chewah mcm doctor pulak* but the anaesthetic doc tell me to take it now not later sbb i dah close to 7cm already. hurmm.... terpaksa pasrahkan je without my hubby. siap pegang tangan nurse tu sbb tanak pegang katil n nurse tu suruhla i baca doa2 tampal kat dinding tu. bagus dorang ni~ qist was still outside masa my hubby dah masuk. later i asked my mom dia ok ke.. my mom cerita la yg nurse kat situ temankan dia and ask her why she was there. she said " papa kat dalam teman mama but qistina cannot go inside coz small kids tak boleh masuk. qist nk pegi alamanda" awwwww.... sedih aiiiii. since i admitted close to friday prayer, my hubby nk pegi solar jumaat . i mintak dia doakan walaupon dalam hati ni risauuuuu sgt if i labour masa dia solat!

since pukul 12pm at 5-6cm til pukul 4pm, my opening was 8cm static. so nurse minta izin i utk assist opening. i okay kan je.. lama jugakla nk tgu siap tido2 bagai. at around 6pm i rasa mcm kebas2 dah kaki kanan ai. i cakap nurse maybe epidural tu tak berkurangan kot *mode: suspen* tp since my opening dah 10cm time tu *takot* so they are preparing for the labour. alamak...... for sure la i akan rasa mcm sakit2 skit nanti kan~~~ *takot*

okay sudah2.. kite continue part 4 ek coz rasa panjang bebeno dah ni!!

XOXO

MH370.... reminds me to "THAT" emergency

Salam everyone~ as of today it has been more than 48 hours since the "missing" of MH370. while many people are buzzyyy speculating it thru social media, more and more other hearts are still worrying!! those heart are still praying for the good news, those heart are still hoping for a positive outcome and most important.... those heart does not requires your false-alarm info *mode : GERAM!* i myself had gone thru similar but not as worse to this incident *ops.. but not for the company i should say* i still remember.. in fact i always remember THAT emergency situation. alhamdulillah.... everything was fine. well.. "fine" is subjective you know, depending how you define it~ 

no no... its not related to aircraft but rather an open sea. i still remember being the next of kin to the person whom directly involved in THAT emergency, waiting for a call from him, trying very very hard to maintain emotionally calm, searching ups & downs for people that could help me... just to get hold to his voice. and yes.. 48 hours is not short just to be in the dark and listened to people keep telling you "he is fine.. dont worry" as a matter of fact, its not relieving at all. if i may recall THAT emergency in 2010...

Day 1
THAT emergency happened at midnight, far far off the shore, in the dark open sea. while they *including him* was busy trying very very hard to save the "place" ad escaped safely, i was rather at home sleeping, not knowing what had happened. i remembered i tried to call him as a normal routine before sleep but to no avail. no one pick up the phone. "maybe he was having a late night work" 

Day 2
i had a meeting with some of management bosses where one of them quoted about the important of HSE by quoting what had happened to THAT place. i was not quite get it coz i thot its a normal small incidences just like others. you know... when bosses were talking normally they will be hinting rather than talking about sensitive issues. later that afternoon i tried to call him again since i felt something "was not right". but again.. no answer. "okay maybe he's busy with the shutdown" i guess... later that night by not watching the news in the TV i get fb msg from his bestfren asking me "madi ok ke hana?" i was like... "nape ko tya camtu?" and that was the triggering alarm for me. i was telling myself "hye.. this is not normal!" and that night i wasn't sleeping.... i remembered asking thru fb and sms-ing many frens since it was already very late *1am* to call and buzzing people. i am very very thankful coz many of my frens was helping with good contact no and info. some from kl, sabah, sarawak and even dubai! but yeah.. i pretended everything was ok coz i was at my parent's house.

Day 3
i went to work that very morning and while driving i contacted few of the bosses whom i knew had a contact to enable me to reach my husband. but  i was not able to get any contact since they were in "quarantine" mode from outsider and media. hye... i am not outsider okay! when i reached my office, i get a phone call and it was HIM!! feeling excited, shocked and amazed.. the call ended up like 30sec!! when he hang up i was like dreaming "what did he said just now??" gosh..... and to wait for his another phone call was just another LONNNNNGGGGG hours! 

he was only back at home after almost a week after THAT incident. yes... now you know how i feel about people making speculation about MH370~ its not easy to those next of kin of the passengers. while they may be glad and grateful when they received phone call from MAS asking them to come down to KLIA for a briefing session and up-to-date info plus counselling and traumatic session *what not*, i was on the other hand being left in the dark, no emergency response team (ERT) called me to informed me that "hye.. THAT place just got burnt down but your husband is safe", i myself searching for the answer and i myself called that ERT asking about him summore *how come meh... ppfttttt!!* starting from that day til he reached home safely was not easy especially when i have to go to work pretending everything was fine, pretending to look calm, pretending to be strong in front of my parents and pretending that nothing had happened in front of my daughter... Ya Allah.. i only have all those strength just being near you

above all, its Allah fate for those incidences to happened. its easy to said that "ada hikmah di sebalik semua yg berlaku" but its not that easy to search for it. let pray for #prayMH370

"Ya Allah, sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui segala yg berlaku di bumi dan di langit. Engkau yg Maha Mengasihani seluruh makhlukmu. Engkau permudahkanlah segala usaha kami dalam misi mencari dan menyelamat mereka. Sekiranya ini takdirmu, Engkau permudahkanlah kepada mereka dan juga kepada kami"

amin ya rabbal 'alamin...

XOXO

myTWIN story : Part 2 Twin Pregnancy

salam mommies. wah... dah lama hang this story ni. since ada mommy post me Q at my AskMommykembar slot in my fb page Mommykembar, lemme continue on. so continue from Part 1 : The Moment of Truth


Part 2 : Twin Pregnancy

while my twin pregnancy does not have much differences dgn single pregnancy dulu, i bersyukur sgt diberi kemudahan sepanjang i mengandungkan twin. for me, bezanya with twin pregnancy....

• i get bloated easily like every 10mins in my 1st tri
• starting 4 months old of my pregnancy i felt sooooo heavy esp kat pinggang masa i duduk or byk jalan
• i get tired easily 
• masa masuk 3rd tri, my stomach felt sooo much heavy like dah nak dekat bersalin
• since 4mths above, at night i makin susah tido 
• compared to single pregnancy, i was more emotionally stable. maybe sbb i mentally ready kot...
• owh the best part.... started 5mths i dah tak drive. and thanx a LOT to my bro mito for being my driver *hugs*
• i rasa dlm 33wks camtu doc dh suruh i kurangkan berjalan coz twin dah makin ke bawah. takut early labour. tapi being me, hurmm.... susah la nak suruh Hana Basri stop berjalan!! okayla... i kurangkan berjalan laju *wink* 
• bile dah nak masuk week 34 tu mmg rasa sgt berat and makin penat. i use to berjalan kat suria klcc from one wing to the other end but this time around.. i can only jalan 5min then duduk. ok this 5min only take me like from one end to the centre court je!!
• at night cabaran sgt tinggi esp masa my hubby not around. since i have the big sister Qistina, so sometime dia poopoo at night, merengek2, tantrum sometimes, buat susu etc kene dientertain. alhamdulillah... i felt Allah made it so much easy for me

Overall, i always believe that positive mindset will strengthen our mental and physical. cumenye.... nak stay positive tu yg payah!! haha. keep zikir close to you, insyaAllah you will be strong mommies! 

for monthly check-up.. bile twin ni doc agak susag nk ukur everytime buat scan. so we opt for detail scan also since its the best scan to identify any abnormalities. so masa i buat detail scan *yes for twin the fees x2 tau!!* doc mentioned that in one of the twin head ada extra fluid. but she informed me not to worry.. eh eh.... mana boleh tak worry kan~~ kite kan mommy!! since then i mmg sgt risau la tp what to do... nak nanges pon sape je boleh tolong kan. instead i keep on berdoa for Allah to make everything good & fine. alhamdulillah... my gyne spotted a good progress towards labour. 

ok mommies, kite continue dgn Part 3 later later ya~

Philea Resort & Spa Melaka... my personal view

alhamdulillah... i dapat opportunity duduk kat this highly rated Philea Resort & Spa Melaka. since last year i always wanted to go here sbb review yg sgt memberangsangkan. so last week i received meeting invitation here so wallah..! there i was at this luxury-so-called resort. cam gempak je cam best je~~

ok now sorry ya coz i dah makin malas upload my own pix so all pix here come from the resort itself

First Impression

i bertolak after working hours and my dad drive us there since hubby not around. so i reached there dah gelap pon... around 9pm. the signage not so good at night so terlepas2 simpang. arriving at the lobby, i lepaskan kanak-kanak riang ria n started to check in. it was smooth coz nobody there pon! received our welcoming drink and a small hand towel to refresh. turned back to my luggage "eh..nape dia letak kat tangga je" while my dad standing at our luggage. "encik, bag ni letak kat sini je?" "owh.. takpe nnt cik dah dapat kunci kami bawak naik buggy ke bilik". i was like.... "erm... owh mmg letak kat tangga ni je ye?" dgn muka senyum malas coz dah penat kan. the lobby agak airy coz the ceiling is very high. masa check-in the lady cakap "this is your wifi password but its going to be weak at the room" huh?? so continue on to our room....

The Room

our room was at first floor sbb i request king size bed. ok my mom & dad senyum jela sbb tangga dia agak menjunam. dlm hati i was like "they should inform me first and should be more sensitive by looking at my parents and my kids" kannnn.... takpela dah mlm so malas nk back & forth to the lobby. proceed into the room. ok part ni mmg WOWWWWWWWWW...... bilik mmg sgt cantik. cantik kan sgt subjective. having to many 5 star-rated hotels before *ni bukan bangga... tp nk compare* this room carried a different concept. yela.. dah dlm website pon tulis log-cabin like kan... so mmgla mcm log cabin. i ckp kat my mom "ni kire mcm camping cara org kaya la" for me i like the room. my mom tak suka coz she prefers the modern type. my dad.... sgt la suka sbb dia mmg orang hutan! turned on wifii.... bukan weak... mmg tak dpt connect pon!!! hurmmm.......

switching on all lights.. alamak.... dim nye...... my dad dah bising sbb he has a report to do. so my mom being our technician *apart than mom, granny, pomen, chef, teacher, laundrette haa ape lagii* bukakkan the tudung desk lamp tu. barula terang..... well yes. the room is very much dim. sesuai utk org yg berehat la and no reading required. my expectation for this most luxury resort in melaka berkurang sket bile i tgk mini bar dia... laa... ada teh lipton n nescafe je??? i am expecting paling cikai pon twinings tea with few flavours. or maybe a coffee machine. im not being sarcastic but having a high rated review and luxury-rated, my expectation is high... very high!! masuk toilet plak... toiletries quite byk. toothbrush, shampoo, soap etc. for me oklah..... kire biasa la same je mcm hotel lain. but the fact that their soap shampoo are serai-based *i guess*, i just love it!

done exploring the room, my dad dah lapar but me & my mom being a light dinner eater, tak lapar la plak. so i wanted to order for him a sandwich from room service. "eh takde menu plak kat bilik" called them and they said " we will send you the menu shortly" eh apeda~~ so after that i placed order again thru phone dgn room service. so 15mins later they came with the meal. i took the meal and he asked "payment miss" i was like... "i thot its going to be charged to my room?" he then replied that make me WT! "owh.. no miss. you need to pay by cash to me and i'll get your change return with the resit" my godd!!!!!!!!! seriously????? i dah penat tau... then kene check in bilik belah atas.... then dah la mini bar korang ciput je tak memberangsangkan.... then u ask me to pay cash for room service?? common..... i just dont want korang disturb us again with change and resit bagai laa.... haiyoo.... so this is the 3rd thing yg menjunamkan lagi my expectation to this so-called-luxury resort. fine!!!! bayar jelahhh. 

done with the night, next morning i woke quite early. everyone pon in fact! i love the morning environment being so chill with birds singing, sitting at the verandah, kids running around. at 7am i went out for the meeting. 

The Food

hurmm...... after my expectation reduce and menjunam by wifii tak dapat kat bilik, mini bar simplee sgtttt, room service kene byr??, now the food pulak....... my verdict.... i gave only 1/5. nothing very fancy, in fact very much plain normal food. no comment!! our lunch was a 6-course lunch for the meeting. my verdict.... the appetizer and the dessert yg ok. yg lain..... hurm.... my verdict 2/5.

The Facilities

the meeting room was biasa je as compared to other 5 star hotel. again.. i expect more than what they can offered. the kids playroom.... okla not bad. yg lain tu i tak sempat explore sbb after meeting, lunch, zoom balik kl. eh tak tak..... went to visit my brother.


Overall

Philea Resort & Spa Melaka scored 3/5 from my own review. being highly rated and claimed as luxury boutique hotel, my expectation is very high as relative comparison to other 5 star hotel in Malaysia. the room concept is excellent. however, they seriously need to improve on food food food and guest pampering items i.e. mini bar, toiletries, bathrobe etc. other than that, please dont scarifice customer's highly paid money because of your high maintenance cost *wink*

VACAY2014 : InsyaAllah...

started researching, planning and searching
but nothing in place yet
its going to be the first for twin
gonna be our 2nd time with big sister
surely going to be our next challenge after South Korea

J.U.S.T.C.A.N.T.W.A.I.T

"May Allah make it easy for us and open up our rezeki for this"
insyaAllah

Tok Aman Bali Resort... our short getaway review

Salam everyone~ last weekend we went to Tok Aman Bali Resort for our short getaway. Alhamdulillah the room was paid sbb my hubby ada team building *hehe* we went by flight sbb jauh sgt nk drive with the 3 princesses. big sister was very much happy sbb dpt naik train erl. as usual before pegi mana2 pon i sgt suka buat research walaupon nk pegi marriott putrajaya yg sekangkang kera dari rumah i tu! this resort has a good review from blogger from my reading. so this time around, its my own review based on our experience...

First Impression
since we went during tengkujuh, so expected la some rain some not-so-sunny-day. upon reached the resort, i was impressed with the resort itself. the whole resort is build on a ship-like shape layout. its a good start.. entering the small lobby, owh... its not like typical hotel where it will have a counter for reception. this resort has a 3 different table set on the left/right for reception, concierge and tours. what i like about the lobby is the waiting area. welcoming drink.. average orange cordial juice. quite sweet for me. while the lobby is facing the outdoor terrace that has small fish pond and leading to swimming pool, there was a magnet pulling us out there! the outdoor landscape was plain, not so hotel-like.

The Room
our room was on the ground floor.. so alhamdulillah we dont need to bring our 15kg twin stroller naik tangga! entering the room.. nice interior. clean. opening the sliding door for verandah... wah facing the lake gitew~ since it was "baby" raining, so the floor kat hujung2 verandah basah2 sket. the good part is the verandah is quite clean. not like some of other resort we have went yg verandah nye mmg lah berpasir, hitam kaki kalau jalan! but this one not to say very clean... but only clean. the room lighting is quite dim aka tak terang sgt.

the is one king size bed and a chaise lounge chair *kerusi panjang tu* the bed is good, pillow x3 okaylaa.. not so comfy. for the lounge chair tu, hurmm.... i have a problem. hehe. it was not well maintain coz i can see black dot-dots on it. its pillow pon ada stain that shows it was never wash *erk* ok takpe... small matter for me... kids.. dont play on it!! haha. overall the room concept is bali resort like. only then takde la patung bagai~ bagus!

the bathroom has a bathtub and shower area. its clean, no lumut-lumut one especially at the shower area. for the toiletries provided, its average only. shower gel, shampoo, soap, cotton bud, shower cap. nothing to fancy on. bathroom ni ada a window where we can see our bed. i suka concept ni coz we can feel the bathroom is BIG. and somemore, senang nk tgk the kiddies mandi manda

The Food
its average.. only average. it was served at the thai restaurant sbb ramai kot. no no... it was not a thai food. only makan kat restaurant tu je. the egg counter was quite slow in making a omelette sbb ada satu je stove. huhu. 

The Facilities
first thing first i will check out the kids club. it was a frustration since the room is rather small and the toys was not well selected. for me, the kids club need a LOT of improvement. i rsa the resort score on outdoor facilities. sbb it has many of outdoor games kite bleh rent. from cycling, kayaking, paddle boating, kids playground, swimming pool... i am very much satisfied with the outdoor! kids playground tu nampak mcm baru... good maintenance. swimming pool pulak quite big. ada 2 slides but one is down for maintenance aka rosak. tp since musim hujan n tengkujuh, mmg menggigil2 la princesesses sbb angin yg super strong~ the resort sets very near to the beach. syokla petang tu kami jalan2 nk g beli jagung bakar. tgh2 memilih skali... hujan lebat dtg sekelip mata je. lintang pukang lari cari tempat berteduh!! seronok jugaklaa... sbbnye tak penah pon exerience this kind of windy season. sbb tersgt windy jadi hujan tu dtg sekali lalu je. interesting!


Overall
this Tok Aman Balik Resort score 4/5 star from my own review. the thing that they need to improve is better outdoor landscape, maintenance for room cleanliness esp the lounge chair and food. 


will i come back? Yes!

AskMommykembar : How to fully breastfeed twin?

salam mommies.. AskMommykembar slot nowadays dh sgt popular dgn Q from moomies. tq tq tq...! ok now this is Q from newly mommyTwin Hazlina

"How do you manage to breastfeed ur twins, pls share...my nipple pun dah luka sikit coz babbies suck tak betul."

i fully understood how HARD it was to bf my twin. insyaAllah ill share bit n pieces of my experiences and summarizekan point ya. cam tak ingat semua sgt laa....

what happened at the hospital? 

i started bf on day 2 sbb day 1 both of them in incubator. they were 1.8kg and 1.9kg. health wise alhamdulillah takde problem. its just underweight. so aimy was the 1st one i dpt bf. being quite small compared to other babies, their suction ni almost tak rasa pon. slalu kan baby bf kt sbelah kanan, nnt sbelah kiri akan rasa cam ada letdown kan? not in my twin case. yes it was hard to define their bf and bile dia stat bf, most of the time there were like baby bird yg mulut terbuka tu cari latching yg betul. i would say quite frustrating for both me n twin lah. day 2 baru alya stat bf. since the were in special care unit (SCU), thats mean i ddk hospital quite lama.... 1 week + camtu. and my room mmg depan SCU. so i cakap kat nurse i want to fully bfeed them regardless hours. so true enough, they came and knocked my door every hour!! yela twin kan.... sometimes they bf serentak, sometimes asing2. bile double feeding, nurse akan help me pegang sbelah. sampai cramp2 kaki nurse tu!! tq so much nurses~~i can say i kluar masuk SCU tu macam tak rasa penat. i yakin Allah mudahkan everything for me. cuba bayangkan.. day 1 baru lepas bersalin twin. day 2 stat bf and yet i dont feel any pain, tired, fatigue etc. even nurses yg dtg bilik i n kejutkan i every hour sampai cakap
"puan rehatla ye... sian saya tgk puan asyik kluar masuk."
"puan tak penat ke? puan nampak tak penat langsung"

honestly, saya pon tak tau ape yg menyebabkan saya sgt aktif, tak rasa penat, on the feet, altho i just gave birth to a twin! for me, its a miracle that Allah creates for women. i remember masa kat hospital i did emotionally breakdown.. becoz i pump susu kononnye nk store ebm lah... tapi stakat la 2-3 titik je. sedih sgt time tu.. thats why i push myself to bf regardless hours to increase my milk supply. i did experience engorgement 2x so my mom siap hangkot makcik urut to the hospital. bilik i mmg bau minyak urut daaa. heheee. 

during first month ni, we go in & out of the hospital due to jaundice. mmg penat.... so bila my twin check in hospital, satu family pon check in same. but we have to pay sendiri. yes its not cheap kan... but my hubby said "ni kira vacay2012 la.. holiday" btulla jgkkan sbbnye 2012 mana ada pegi vacation! motivated ourselves that way~~ haha. since twin is small, my paed advice to top-up formula milk to boost their weight faster. i sangaaatttttt tak suka tau!! doc advice at least 1 serving after bf. tp i buat 1 serving per day!! haha... sbb tula jaundice tak surut2.... sorry ye twin.. so basically, this first month i dedicatedkan myself to bf regardless hours. its not easy and not too hard either. yg penting, bykkan doa to Allah coz i sgt yakin yg semua doa mommies masa pregnant, dlm confinement, raising babies was always dipermudahkan *amin*


what happened during confinement at home?

i mmg tak mkn any jamu coz i always believe in natural supplement and vitamins. not against it but just not my choice. so i took pure honey, habbatus sauda oil, jelly gamat, susu, kurma, oats, horlicks, vitamins, protein supplement, minum air 3L min without fail. i tell you.... kat rumah even more challenging sbbnye kite kene handle twin sendiri.. no nurses anymore!! uuwaaaa.... so my hubby has been a very patient male nurse ever!! he help a lot in changing diapers, bath them, pakai baju, basuh baju, diala alarm clock... senang citer semualah~~ he will make sure i will have my drinks on time. my mom help out to prepare our food *thanx ma* having twin is not the same to having 2 small toddler on the same time. i remember satu mlm tu my hubby and i tak tido langsung sbbnye... twin asyik bf and poopoo~!! my goddddd.... gile ah diingatkan balik *ops* twin ni bile kecik dorang takleh open to quick temperature change. their skin just cannot stands it yet. so bile nk tukar diaper kan, kene off aircond, warmkan the rubber mat, warm water and kene quickly change. thats for my hubby lah. i pulak kene bf them dari baring sampai duduk, duduk kat kerusi and of course, after each feeding, i will eat 3 kurma n susu. haa... cube bayangkan bape byk susu kene minum daaaa... dah rasa cam kilang produce susu kat rumah i. haha. besides that, since i bersalin during ramadhan, malam after maghrib i will be alone with twin n big sister. so time2 camni i slalu nangis sbbnye rasa susah sgt nk handle.... 1 hour my hubby g solat tu rsa cam lama gile!!! i keep zikir and doa and doa for Allah mudahkan. mmg berat hati nk kasi my hubby g surau *yg sekangkang kera je jauhnye* tp berat lagi hati nk suruh dia stay and skip solat terawaih kat surau. so everytime dia g surau, i will doa to Allah utk permudahkan semua and i will ask him to doakan kami. most of the time masa my hubby g surau tu i was feeding the twin. kadang2 dia balik tgk "eh tak abis lagi?" huhuhuuu.. bukan tak habis tapi tak habis2 selang seli~~


what happened when they reach 3mths?

masa ni Allah je yg memahami perasaan i kot.. sbb bile nk masuk bulan ke-4, twin dh stat slowdown for double feeding and sleep longer a bit. so instead of my sleeping time masa 1st month only 15mins per session (max pon 30min), it slowly increase to 30min (max 1 hour). owh btw, i took unpaid leave continued after my maternity. so my total leave was 6mths~ when i started working, they was already 6mths and started solid. bile habis confinement, my hubby started working back. so i stayed 2weks at my parents home every month bile dia xde. haa.. dah mcm nomad kot!! this was when everything was different. yelaa... staying with mom n hubby is different. well.. at least for me. since my supermom not young anymore, handling babies is way too tiring for her. so kadang2 nk kejutkan dia bgn mlm tolong tukar diapers or help me is wayy too kesian. she slept with me u know with all princessess tu. so i tried my very best to "stay up" every night. kekadang tu kalau my twin nangis terkuat mmg my mom bgn terus lah.. my twin alya suara mmg high peak! what i did was i make note using my i-phone where i record kan their feeding time. so basically i bleh tgk pattern dorang bf. so i will set my alarm clock so that i will standby at least 15mins before dorang cried for bf. honestly, starting after confinement, my sleep was majority tido duduk. yes... tido duduk~~kadang2 bf sampai tertido.. sedar2 je "eh nape my twin tido kat kaki i ni" hahah.. mmg tak bleh nk tolong la kann.... during this time i byk baca blog and website mommies on twin. i tried to understood how hard to raise them, their experiences, tips, dos & donts etc. for me, by reading these i surely can get my mental ready for any shortcoming or challenges ahead. but again... im just human, not super one. so at times mmg i akan breakdown gile2. i did cried like crazy sometimes, jerit cam org gile etc.. hishhhh.... so thanx to my hubby, my parents, my bros, my siss for being there to help me go through this difficult phase!! *gosh... sedih plak tetibe* 


camtulah... during these phases, i came to fully understood what it means "bile kite jauh dari Allah, Allah akan dtgkan ujian yg kita boleh handle so that kita kembali dekat dgn Allah" and for me, all the way from my pregnancy to birth, confinement, raising them, i highly realise this!! syukur alhamdulillah coz i was chosen to be a mommy to a twin akak MommyKembar. so to mommyTwin Hazlina, you are the selected one and you will go through this phase succeccfully. usaha usaha usaha. yg paling penting, yakin dgn Allah, slalu doa & mintak from Allah. apa yg baik kita usahakan, insyaAllah semua dimudahkan. 


XOXO

Sugar free for kids? Boleh ke?

I always be a person yg very much concern in healthy eating. Its not that I tak makan junk food, pizza, maggi etc, sekali sekala mmg la makannnnn *teringin kot* but somehow if I do consume those thing, I will be like "my god... tak healthy betul" something like that lah. In my own journey towards ageing gracefully, I started to reduce spicy & oily food since 5 years ago and reduce sugar intake since 2 years ago. I am a person yg akan baca nutrition facts on labels bile buy groceries. scary kannnn?? dont be! coz you will appreciate me in 10-15 years to come *macam bagus! haha*

for example.. my hot milo is only 3 tsp or 1 1/2 tbsp milo + hot water. yes.. no sugar, no susu pekat. and for my hubby, dia ni sgt suka minum teh susu. since we were married, he used to minum teh with susu pekat. sometime 3-4 years ago, he change to susu pekat + fresh milk. and started early this year.... I dah berjaya change his teh tarik with brown sugar + fresh milk. only last month, we change to organic raw sugar + fresh milk. okay.. now teh tarik dia sound so not mamak teh tarik at all!!! LOL. now i am trying to switch slowwwwwly to brown rice pulak. my ecobrown rice dlm fridge dh bertapa berbulan2 kot!!

having kids, i am very very particular in what they are eating. for my eldest 5yo qistina, i always tell her that sweet, chocolate, flavoured drink, ice cream are not good for her brain, her teeth etc. so mmg dia tak mkn at all until last 2 years i feel bad.. kesian plak dia membesar without all that joy. so i teach her slowly eating ice cream. haha. i dont want la to be mak yg strict sgt kannnnnn *ehem* but i always remind her to brush teeth properly if not worms will eat her teeth nnt jadi kaler black!

yesterday.. i have a thot of baking steam banana choc muffin for the twin. but somehow most of the receipe has sugar in it. so this morning when i google for kids receipe, i am very very very very very happy to find this!!!

http://www.sugarfreekids.com.au

ehh ada rupenye orang buat website camni ekkkkk.... super impressed!! so mommies... i nak ajak all of you to browse her receipe that is very very very healthy *ok now i sound too impressed already* will try out some of her receipe and share, insyaAllah

eat healthy, age gracefully!
XOXO

Breastfeeding by Mommykembar

Salam semua. lama kan tak update~~ nowadays cam suke update status kat fb page Mommykembar. short & sweet gitu. my page ni basically i jual autumnz product at the cheapest price you can get! selain tu, i do share tips and tricks in raising my twin, healthy living etc.

ok now.. i got this Q from mommy Nina

"Ur twin fully breastfeed atau campur susu formula? Kalau breastfeed, bagi serentak atau asing2? 
Sy rasa susu badan saya x cukup utk twin.. ade tips x?"

well... since fb kan tak best nk tulis pepanjang, so i will explain in detail here. ready mommies.....

  

I bf my twin princesses until they reach 1yo until i decided to mix. i stat bf them day 2 at hospital coz day 1 dorang kene duduk dlm incubator takleh kuar. so stat day 2 until 1yo was fully bf. fyi, i took unpaid leave until they reach 6m. my twin was born in july 2012, so i stat keje balik jan2013. this is my journey in summary.

Month 1-3 (July-Oct 2012)

it was the toughest months ever!! haha.. simply because i was practically adjusting myself to be a wife and a mommy to a twin + a big sister. alhamdulillah.... since my hubby dapat "cuti" panjang, he assisted me day & night for 7wks plus my mom was around oso. since i decided to fully bf them, it was a heart breaking when doc suggested to top-up with formula when twin got jaundice. tak byk pon... in one day top up only 1 syringe per person. not because my susu tak cukup but to boost up their weight faster. kalau ikut doc kene byk skit tp since i mmg nk fully bf i nekadkan je kasi sekali sehari. sbb tu la agaknya twin kene jaundice on-off for about month gitu. hadoi...mmg penatla kan ulang alik g hospital. bile jaundice dorang ok je, trus i stopkan formula. and that was the time i have a sleepless day & night for 5 mths!!

since they were very much small and twin pulak tu, they just dont bother pon on timing nak sama ke tak ke. yg penting, lapar je cry, lapar je cry. and to boost up susu, i decided to bf them every hour. to be honest, it was tiring, realllyyyyyy tiring........! most of the time they double feed and this was double tiring for me. i dont know why but i find double feeding ni drain my energy a LOT~ haha. my day & night mmg i devoted for bf beside handling my 5yo princess. my hubby pulak not working full time in kl so when he is not around, i will stay with my parent. having NO maid, yes my mom byk membantu *i owe you big time ma* 

if i single bf, my feeding time will be non-stop or at least gap 15min. Usually small baby kan bf for 45m gitu. So bile dah twin, the cycle utk bf tu cepatla sket. This mean in between feeing I got 15-30mins rest before another twin start to cry for bf. if i double feed, i can rest for max 1 hr. but... it was not always a shiny day kan. during month 1-3 ni my rest was normally 30mins max! sebab... selain kene bf, i kene makan jugak, mandi, entertain 5yo princess... and my sleep at night was always DUDUK. yes....penat kan~~~ my god it seriously penaaaatttttt!!! Above all, I sgt bersyukur when Allah is always there. I believe Allah do keep on eye on us & hear our doa. Bayangkan with not enough sleep, I always manage to get deep sleep within that short duration. Again .. always doa. For me, I always doa like “Ya Allah, berilah aku deep sleep for at least 15mine before alya/aimy bangun” and yes!! Mmg deep sleeeepppp gile and mmg bgn je trus cry nk bf. This thing going on and on sampai twin reach 4m. 

Month 4-5 (Nov-Dec 2012)

Bile dah masuk 4m normally baby ni dah stat distracted dgn persekitaran dia. So I can letak dorang depan tv kasi dorang leka sket. Tapi sket jela… coz they sleep bf frequently. But at least my sleep duration increase to max 1hr~ bile masuk 4m ni my twin dh slowly stat single feed. Dah pandai beratur amik no ikut turn la bahasa lay-man nye…. Bagus2! I was very much happier than ever~ *yeay*

Month 6 above (Jan 2013 onwards)

When I started to introduce solid, sepatutnye dorang kurang minum kan? NO…….. not for my twin. They keep their range the SAME!! I think sbb my twin ni type yg minum sket tp kerap. so bile dah stat keje balik, i pump 5x a day at the office until 10mth, then reduce to 4x until they reach 1yo, then slowly reduce to 2x, and 1x and now... officially i am breastpump-free!! ok part ni tak tau nak yeay ke nak hurmm... haha

Above all, my bf journey has made me forget what is beauty sleep, what is sleep at night and I even don’t remember sleeping at night at all pon especially when I started to work again. My day & night tu same je…. coz bile dah stat keje, my routine increase esp when my hubby not around like these...

6.30am - kuar pegi keje
7.30am - 4.30pm - at work, pumping 5x
5.30pm - reach home, pump 1x, wash pump & bottle, solat
6.00pm - fetch qistina, fetch twin, drive home
6.30-7.30pm - entertain the kid, basuh botol, food container, gosok2 baju twin yg kotor sbb mkn, bf
7.30pm - break for solat, mandi
8.30pm - dinner for kids & me
9.00pm - bf
10.00pm - stat tidokan kids, bf 
11.30pm-1.00am - bf, pump, tido balik
2.30-3.30am - bf, pump, tido balik
4.30am, bf ,pump, bgn terus
5.00am - get ready to work, prepare kids stuff, solat, mandi
6.30am - ok i start the cycle all over again!! *gosh*

so among reasons why I decided to mix at 1yo and fully stop bf at 1y6m is as above :) nantila i cite part lain on how i started to detached twin. its painful.... i mean it!! *ouch*

Tips untuk susu banyak? Hurmm…. Not sure if these are tips but these are what I did

1. I bf them every 1 hour
2. Everyday I baca doa utk ibu menyusu and doa supaya Allah tetapkan rezeki menyusu utk my twin, bykkan susu, tenangkan diri
3. I bykkan zikir coz bile hati tenang I dpt rasa susu byk
4. Eat a lot…. A LOT!! I even mkn lagi byk dari my hubby and yet after 2jam dah lapar balik. And I keep on munching things, healthy one~
5. I drink susu byk.. 2x day, 2x nights
6. I makan kurma, pure honey, habbatus sauda oil
7. i minum high protein drink

Altho sometime I mmg rasa susu mcm sikit, esp bile tahap penat gile2 tp I always tell myself that its enough for my twin coz they have good diapers change, good progress altho small as compared to normal baby. Bila kita yakin, insyaAllah Allah akan bantu.

Hope my summary helps.. if not a lot, a tiny bit pon is good enough! panjang dah ni i tulis *ikhlas ikhlas* haha

XOXO

myTWIN story : Part 1 The Moment of Truth

alhamdulillah... start jugak blogging jari jemari ku ini~ *grrr* few of my frenz asked me to update on having twin. how was pregnancy, labour and raising them. since currently i ada fb page selling baby goods at the lowest market price for Autumnz products *ok sempat promo*, i slalu sgt update kat Mommykembar page. tp byk mana je kan bleh nk menulis dlm fb.... so lemme cite panjang lebar kat sini. 

when i discovered that i was pregnant back in Dec 2011, i straightaway went to specialist to confirm and started monthly check up. at first masa menunggu nk confirmkan kat local GP *masa 1 mth*, i dpt rasa yg i generated a lot of wind aka angin! i will get bloated every 10 mins. mkn skit ke makan byk ke.... bloated jgklaaaa. i never knew that i was having twin until i buat check up masa 2 months. i still remembered...

Doc : how was it so far mommy?

Me : So far so good... just i get bloated cepat sgt.. every 10 mins

Doc : come.. baring and doctor nk check

... so she started scanning my tummy*

Doc : ok can u see here.... *pointing at baby's home* see this little tiny is your baby

Me : yes.. *smiling*

Doc : do you know why u developed a lot of wind?

Me : noo.... *suspen...*

.. this time Qistina was sebok2 nk papa dia entertain her....

Doc : do you see this *pointing at a black dark oval*

Me : uh hu... *suspen.. takot doc kata ada problem sbb i mmg nampak bulat hitam*

... sambil gerakkan scanner tu sket..

Doc : see there is another one here..

Me : huh??

Doc : its twin mommy!

... my hubby terus tgk screen..

Hubby : hah?

Me : serious ke doc?

Doc : yes mommy...

Me : *gelak* alhamdulillah.. *tak tau nk respond ape sbenanye. siap bangun sket n tgk screen betul2*

... my hubby tak gerak2 tgk screen.....

so thats was how it started~ i was lucky for the whole duration of my pregnancy i takde masalah yg byk in handling them. i takde sickness, i takde muntah, i takde loya, i takde takde takde.... *alhamdulillah.. syukur yg teramat sgt* what was in my mind was....

cane nk handle ek masa my hubby takde nnt?

will he be around masa i deliver nnt?

cane nk jaga Qist bile my hubby tade?

twin? not easy.... kene start baca ni!!

OMG~~~!!!!! I really really having twin!!!! slalu i akan cakap bile nampak org ada twin *i bet sume akan cakap bende yg sama* 

"bestnye ada twin.....!"

and when i actually have one *or two?*, then i realised....

"my god!! besar dugaan & cabaran ni!!"

till then.. continue Part 2 Twin Pregnancy 

XOXO

its been 10 months!! *gosh*

salam everyone~ well... yes.. its been 10 months since my last post. teruknye!! its not that i forget about this dear blog but i actually chose to forget *eh ada ke* too many stories to be told...!!! gosh i misss my blog~~~ lets start with a short list of update since my last post in April 2012

May 2012

i was soo busy with workload since i only have like 2 months before delivery! work was at peak this time and the twin was heavier *altho they actualy..... kecils jerzzz* tido mlm was never easy but overall... my pregnancy was very good. nnt la i share in differnt post how was my twin pregnany, delivery & raising the twin caterpillars *my father always called his little grand tots caterpillar*

June 2012

my last month of work. alhamdulillah as my doa termakbul to have a replacement for my work. well.. its not really a replacement per say lah.. but i was happy *at that time!* as for pregnancy, i was entering the takot zone!! haha.... yela.. mana tau twin came out awal ke... tried to not jalan banyak2 coz it can enhanced early labour *but i just cant!!* i should have done a final check for barang2 baby and their names. but... we never have their names finalized until the very last min *terok btul kan....masa 1st anak bukan main lageyyyy* and last but not least, i started my mc + maternity leave + unpaid leave at 25 June. ape? nape unpaid ek? hurm... nnt kite cite panjang lebar in diff post

July 2012

well.... it should be the check up day for 36th weeks but twin cannot bare inside anymore!! they wanted to came out so bad that the opening was 5-6cm during the check-up. yes..! my doc even suspen coz my water bag was bulging!! ok i citer in diff post la ek.. sbb ni kan updates je. starting july ni... i masuk zone confinement + adaptation to having twin. wah..... sgt sgt mencabar!!!

Aug-Oct 2012

well... basically this 3 months was really a challenging months. so many things happen, so much energy consume, so tiring, so hectic, so tak cukop tido, so life-is-just-the-bedroom-and-dining-area, so...... many stories to be told!! nanti ye..... ill update, insyaAllah

Nov 2012

this was the month that i was very much looking forward since the twin reach their 4 months aka starting to settle down bit, less bangun malam, more predictable... but for case, it was not!!! hadoiiiiii...... owh and towards end of month i realised "alamak.. nk stat keje dah. tak buat stok ebm pon!!" haruslah i straightaway start last week of november *with just 1x pumping session.... kamon... malas kan!!*

Dec 2012

alhamdulillah... things has settled down a bit. at least they are more predictive, bole start tgk tv, being distracted with tv, toys etc. i started to introduce solid *yes.. they are just 5 mths* good to see that they have been very adaptable to solid this time

Jan 2013

arrghhhhh.....!!!! stat keje means masuklah i into zone sangat sangat mencabar!!!. it became tough when my hubby was away, i have work to catch-up *yela after like 6mths tinggal??*, pumping session day & night, solid food prep, skool kid to handle, gosok baju, basuh bottle *like 15 bottle everyday?? dan sgt byk lagi!!

Feb 2013

i start to blog again after sooooo many frenz asking

"bile u nk start blog again? miss ur post" - terharu i... thanx u guys!

"share la ur twin pix.....! tak penah tgk" - yes, i tak penah share twin pix anywhere :D insyaAllah i will select some of it and upload here kay

"share la how u handle twin!! " - of course i will dear especially those yg tgh preggy

overall.. my journey will goes on kan. and the best part of it..... i am very very much looking forward to 

travel again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

XOXO

VACAY2012... please call me....

sob sob... i will miss to have VACAY2012 this year... but i am glad for the reason of not having it abroad *at least* yes its a hint ye to hubby to have at least one domestic end of the year~ please please... i really seriously need it coz i already feel the workload pressure *its really killing me... grrrrr* , the delivery moment, the confinement zone, the the the the... haiya to many maaa~~~~

yesterday my fren flew to france for a week, next week another one will be going to NZ, then followed by another fren to Sydney, and the UK too.. and and and and and... haiya to many maa~~~ i can just give advice but i cannot foloooooo

and to be honest, i cannot pon travel far starting like now and cannot also travel too long end of this year. well... i just dont like to travel during cuti sekolah!! packed, jammed, crowded~~~ we dont know what to expect yet after july but i am hoping for the very very best. Allah Maha Mengetahui lagi Maha Mengasihi. can i request something from you guys? doakan saya dgn ikhlas...

"Ya Allah, sesungguhnya engkau yang Maha Mengetahui apa yang terbaik buat hana.basri. Aku bermohon agar engkau permudahkan segala yg terbaik untuk dirinya"

insyaAllah

new gadget yg memanggil-manggil..... *hurm*

i came across this new gadget this morning

and its memanggil-manggil diriku ini.... *adoi*

source : www.samsung.com/my/smarttv/

AKPK.. thumbs up~!

today we had a talk on financial management conducted by AKPK. they call this talk as POWER talk. since its a free talk that myCompany offered once a month *apart than other talk.. business, engineering, marketing etc* so we ols pon enroll for this one. my first impression was.. 

"alamak.. 2 hours talk ke....."

expecting it to be just-a-normal-talk and planned to leave early. as it started, starting je dah very very impact~ful. sbb.... speaker nye was very very excellent!!! i would give her rating 5 *the bomb gitu...*

who is AKPK?

source : http://www.akpk.org.my

The Credit Counselling and Debt Management Agency, or commonly known as Agensi Kaunseling dan Pengurusan Kredit (AKPK), is an agency set up by Bank Negara Malaysia in April 2006 to help individuals take control of their financial situation and gain peace of mind that comes from the wise use of credit.

AKPK offers the following services to individuals, free of charge:

• Financial education on the responsible use of money and credit management skills
• Counselling and advice on financial management
• Debt management programme to assist consumers to regain financial control

so basically we can always go n meet them for any financial advice. anything u ols~!!! except how many credit card u ols nk apply la kan... *wink* they conducted a free talk/seminar etc. so rajin2 lah click kat website dorang n search for when-where its being conducted. 

we also bought this POWER book. for me, its a basic financial management knowlegde..... but the price is sooo cheap RM5 only ye... its a full colour printed book with a high quality paper *glossy one*

so drop by at AKPK and learn how to manage ur money wisely