#MH370... pulanglah dengan tenang....

when the news break last night...

many hearts were broken....

many hearts were shocked....

many hearts still hoping...

and many hearts still praying...

MH370... pulanglah...

pulanglah dengan tenang...

semoga perjumpaanmu dengan Ilahi...

dipermudahkan dan dirahmati...

semoga perjumpaanmu dengan Ilahi...

memberi petunjuk yang kekal abadi...

Ya Allah... 

semoga hari ini lebih baik dari semalam..

semoga hari ini kekal damai..

semoga hari ini datang dan pergi..

dengan tenang..

Ya Allah...

kami bersyukur dengan petunjukmu...

permudahkanlah segala rancangan kami...

datanglah kami bantuan dari segala sudut..

bantulah kami dari segenap ruang...

agar kami bisa menyelesaikan persoalan ini...

dengan mudah...

dengan segera...

dengan aman...

agar hati dan perasaan mereka kembali tenang...

menerima dugaan mu dengan mudah...

menerima takdir mu dengan redha...

#MH370... kepulangan mu dinanti...

pulanglah ayah.. pulangla ibu...

pulanglah anak... pulanglah saudara...

pulanglah dengan tenang...

"i prayed for them always.... and now my heart now goes to you families..."

written by : hana.basri

myTWIN story : Part 3 Twin Pre-Labour

alhamdulillah... ada masa continue lagi. sian kat mommy yg asked me at AskMommykembar slot. sorry mommy... very tight up to blog again *ok ni alasan*

having twin as my second pregnancy has at least make me feel bit prepared. yes only a bit! haha~ i did not really prepare til the last min you know! *teruk betul* everyday i pray non-stop from day 1 til labour to have my hubby together with me during labour. when its twin, i need to be more manja! demand for more attention la kononnye.... alhamdulillah, it was Allah will and my rezeki. alhamdulillah.... storyline nye lebih kurang ginilah

Monday 2 July 2012
masa ni i dah stat mc for labour. malam tu lebih kurang kul 12am i rasa mcm lenguh pinggang. ok mind here..... i jenis yg fear to pain. masa kecik2 dulu if i jatuh or anything i ok je tapi the moment i nampak darah.. terus rasa sakit tak terhingga! so since then i develop this fear to pain thingy~ so my definition of "contraction" is always lenguh pinggang. hahahha! *in denial sgt* mmg almost every night i lenguh pinggang so that very night it started at midnite. i rasa cam "takde apelah" since my hubby takde kan... so to be strong kononnye i control my emotion. trying hard to sleep at last i terlelap. but around 3am i terjaga with more intense "lenguh pinggang". since my hubby takde and outside was raining heavvvvvvily i told myself "takde apela... lagipon kan hujan. takkan nk kejut mama papa kan. nnt nak kuar dgn basah semua... ok tahan tahan" lebih kurang camtula.. berpeluh2 i tahan rasa lenguh tu. i ingat almost to 5am kot baru i boleh tido. and syukur alhamdulillah pagi esok nye i OK!!!

Wednesday 4 July 2012
today my hubby balik. alhamdulillah... sampai jugak dia akhirnya!!! so nothing happened actually today. just happy dia sampai rumah coz i can sense macam dah dekat. masa dia takde tu i keep on telling Allah with silent doa inside my heart saying that "Ya Allah... aku harap sangat abang balik hari rabu ni then at least kasi dia rehat one day camtu then baru la labour" boleh tak doa camtu? tp that was that i keep on telling myself and deep down i know mestila Allah dengar kan....

Friday 6 July 2012
it was my check up day. and we promised qistina nk pegi alamanda after that. so she was happily followed us. so bile check up as usual my gyne akan tya "how r u mommy? how the baby inside?" camtula... then she started to masukkan jari to measure opening. her water face changed!! "mommy... do you feel pain?" NO "do feel any contraction?" NO "do you feel anything before?" NO.. nape ye doc? "i think its 5-6cm already... let me confirm" so dia pon masukkan jari lagi dalam. "yes mommy its around 5-6cm already" dalam hati i.. "syukur alhamdulillah.. sempat my hubby sampai" so my big prediction was that "lenguh pinggang" on monday tu was actually a correct contraction! so she asked me to walk slowly outside and ready to straight to labour room. i was like.. "tak sempat pegi alamanda ye doc?" dia gelakkkkk kan i jewww

so straight i was to the labour room. qistina keep asking "why we are going here? kata nk pegi alamanda...." my hubby called my mom to fetch her. i was in the labour room asking for epidural to standby *chewah mcm doctor pulak* but the anaesthetic doc tell me to take it now not later sbb i dah close to 7cm already. hurmm.... terpaksa pasrahkan je without my hubby. siap pegang tangan nurse tu sbb tanak pegang katil n nurse tu suruhla i baca doa2 tampal kat dinding tu. bagus dorang ni~ qist was still outside masa my hubby dah masuk. later i asked my mom dia ok ke.. my mom cerita la yg nurse kat situ temankan dia and ask her why she was there. she said " papa kat dalam teman mama but qistina cannot go inside coz small kids tak boleh masuk. qist nk pegi alamanda" awwwww.... sedih aiiiii. since i admitted close to friday prayer, my hubby nk pegi solar jumaat . i mintak dia doakan walaupon dalam hati ni risauuuuu sgt if i labour masa dia solat!

since pukul 12pm at 5-6cm til pukul 4pm, my opening was 8cm static. so nurse minta izin i utk assist opening. i okay kan je.. lama jugakla nk tgu siap tido2 bagai. at around 6pm i rasa mcm kebas2 dah kaki kanan ai. i cakap nurse maybe epidural tu tak berkurangan kot *mode: suspen* tp since my opening dah 10cm time tu *takot* so they are preparing for the labour. alamak...... for sure la i akan rasa mcm sakit2 skit nanti kan~~~ *takot*

okay sudah2.. kite continue part 4 ek coz rasa panjang bebeno dah ni!!

XOXO

MH370.... reminds me to "THAT" emergency

Salam everyone~ as of today it has been more than 48 hours since the "missing" of MH370. while many people are buzzyyy speculating it thru social media, more and more other hearts are still worrying!! those heart are still praying for the good news, those heart are still hoping for a positive outcome and most important.... those heart does not requires your false-alarm info *mode : GERAM!* i myself had gone thru similar but not as worse to this incident *ops.. but not for the company i should say* i still remember.. in fact i always remember THAT emergency situation. alhamdulillah.... everything was fine. well.. "fine" is subjective you know, depending how you define it~ 

no no... its not related to aircraft but rather an open sea. i still remember being the next of kin to the person whom directly involved in THAT emergency, waiting for a call from him, trying very very hard to maintain emotionally calm, searching ups & downs for people that could help me... just to get hold to his voice. and yes.. 48 hours is not short just to be in the dark and listened to people keep telling you "he is fine.. dont worry" as a matter of fact, its not relieving at all. if i may recall THAT emergency in 2010...

Day 1
THAT emergency happened at midnight, far far off the shore, in the dark open sea. while they *including him* was busy trying very very hard to save the "place" ad escaped safely, i was rather at home sleeping, not knowing what had happened. i remembered i tried to call him as a normal routine before sleep but to no avail. no one pick up the phone. "maybe he was having a late night work" 

Day 2
i had a meeting with some of management bosses where one of them quoted about the important of HSE by quoting what had happened to THAT place. i was not quite get it coz i thot its a normal small incidences just like others. you know... when bosses were talking normally they will be hinting rather than talking about sensitive issues. later that afternoon i tried to call him again since i felt something "was not right". but again.. no answer. "okay maybe he's busy with the shutdown" i guess... later that night by not watching the news in the TV i get fb msg from his bestfren asking me "madi ok ke hana?" i was like... "nape ko tya camtu?" and that was the triggering alarm for me. i was telling myself "hye.. this is not normal!" and that night i wasn't sleeping.... i remembered asking thru fb and sms-ing many frens since it was already very late *1am* to call and buzzing people. i am very very thankful coz many of my frens was helping with good contact no and info. some from kl, sabah, sarawak and even dubai! but yeah.. i pretended everything was ok coz i was at my parent's house.

Day 3
i went to work that very morning and while driving i contacted few of the bosses whom i knew had a contact to enable me to reach my husband. but  i was not able to get any contact since they were in "quarantine" mode from outsider and media. hye... i am not outsider okay! when i reached my office, i get a phone call and it was HIM!! feeling excited, shocked and amazed.. the call ended up like 30sec!! when he hang up i was like dreaming "what did he said just now??" gosh..... and to wait for his another phone call was just another LONNNNNGGGGG hours! 

he was only back at home after almost a week after THAT incident. yes... now you know how i feel about people making speculation about MH370~ its not easy to those next of kin of the passengers. while they may be glad and grateful when they received phone call from MAS asking them to come down to KLIA for a briefing session and up-to-date info plus counselling and traumatic session *what not*, i was on the other hand being left in the dark, no emergency response team (ERT) called me to informed me that "hye.. THAT place just got burnt down but your husband is safe", i myself searching for the answer and i myself called that ERT asking about him summore *how come meh... ppfttttt!!* starting from that day til he reached home safely was not easy especially when i have to go to work pretending everything was fine, pretending to look calm, pretending to be strong in front of my parents and pretending that nothing had happened in front of my daughter... Ya Allah.. i only have all those strength just being near you

above all, its Allah fate for those incidences to happened. its easy to said that "ada hikmah di sebalik semua yg berlaku" but its not that easy to search for it. let pray for #prayMH370

"Ya Allah, sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui segala yg berlaku di bumi dan di langit. Engkau yg Maha Mengasihani seluruh makhlukmu. Engkau permudahkanlah segala usaha kami dalam misi mencari dan menyelamat mereka. Sekiranya ini takdirmu, Engkau permudahkanlah kepada mereka dan juga kepada kami"

amin ya rabbal 'alamin...

XOXO

myTWIN story : Part 2 Twin Pregnancy

salam mommies. wah... dah lama hang this story ni. since ada mommy post me Q at my AskMommykembar slot in my fb page Mommykembar, lemme continue on. so continue from Part 1 : The Moment of Truth


Part 2 : Twin Pregnancy

while my twin pregnancy does not have much differences dgn single pregnancy dulu, i bersyukur sgt diberi kemudahan sepanjang i mengandungkan twin. for me, bezanya with twin pregnancy....

• i get bloated easily like every 10mins in my 1st tri
• starting 4 months old of my pregnancy i felt sooooo heavy esp kat pinggang masa i duduk or byk jalan
• i get tired easily 
• masa masuk 3rd tri, my stomach felt sooo much heavy like dah nak dekat bersalin
• since 4mths above, at night i makin susah tido 
• compared to single pregnancy, i was more emotionally stable. maybe sbb i mentally ready kot...
• owh the best part.... started 5mths i dah tak drive. and thanx a LOT to my bro mito for being my driver *hugs*
• i rasa dlm 33wks camtu doc dh suruh i kurangkan berjalan coz twin dah makin ke bawah. takut early labour. tapi being me, hurmm.... susah la nak suruh Hana Basri stop berjalan!! okayla... i kurangkan berjalan laju *wink* 
• bile dah nak masuk week 34 tu mmg rasa sgt berat and makin penat. i use to berjalan kat suria klcc from one wing to the other end but this time around.. i can only jalan 5min then duduk. ok this 5min only take me like from one end to the centre court je!!
• at night cabaran sgt tinggi esp masa my hubby not around. since i have the big sister Qistina, so sometime dia poopoo at night, merengek2, tantrum sometimes, buat susu etc kene dientertain. alhamdulillah... i felt Allah made it so much easy for me

Overall, i always believe that positive mindset will strengthen our mental and physical. cumenye.... nak stay positive tu yg payah!! haha. keep zikir close to you, insyaAllah you will be strong mommies! 

for monthly check-up.. bile twin ni doc agak susag nk ukur everytime buat scan. so we opt for detail scan also since its the best scan to identify any abnormalities. so masa i buat detail scan *yes for twin the fees x2 tau!!* doc mentioned that in one of the twin head ada extra fluid. but she informed me not to worry.. eh eh.... mana boleh tak worry kan~~ kite kan mommy!! since then i mmg sgt risau la tp what to do... nak nanges pon sape je boleh tolong kan. instead i keep on berdoa for Allah to make everything good & fine. alhamdulillah... my gyne spotted a good progress towards labour. 

ok mommies, kite continue dgn Part 3 later later ya~